Below are the most recent 8 friends' journal entries.

Wednesday, January 6th, 2010
mhjozwiakblog	10:13a	Rrrrr http://thedumbestsmartgirlyouknow.blogspot.com/2010/01/rrrrr.html Rex was playing with a sticker book and I asked him where it came from...must have been a Christmas gift from the ex's side. "Melissa gave this to me!" Uh, I'm Melissa. "Who?" "Melissa..." Wait a minute..."Arissa? Your cousin? Arissa and Justin and Taylor?" "YEAH! Melissa!!" "Aaarrrrrrrrrrissa. Rrrrr. Can you say that?" "Melissa. Rrrr." I give up. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 5th, 2010
mhjozwiakblog	10:24p	big fat lame http://thedumbestsmartgirlyouknow.blogspot.com/2010/01/big-fat-lame.html I am not cut out to be a stay-at-home mom. I'm losing my mind. I felt this way before, but now that I've had a taste of working again, it's worse. I NEED to get this truck situation (am I the only one that can't see or say that word now without thinking of The Jersey Shore?) under control and get a J-O-B. End of story. Even my blog has become the pinnacle of lame. I bore myself, guys. I have nothing interesting to say, here or anywhere else. The majority of my conversations lately have been what I've seen while creeping on Facebook. BECAUSE I'M LAME. (And I apologize.) The highs and lows of the past week or so: -Gen repeatedly asking me when I leave for work. -Lots and lots of giggling and telling each other that we are funny and/or pretty and/or handsome and/or all of the aforementioned. -Both kids spilling every liquid that reaches their fingertips. -More arts and crafts than I can stand. -Not being able to cash the child-support check and the incredible stress that followed. -Overeating because I don't have anything else to keep busy with...besides the constant CLEANING that no one would ever notice because the new messes are made faster than I can un-make the old ones. -Rex saying the alphabet backwards. He's such a smarty-pants, that one! -We have all these new clothes from Christmas, and have been wearing them just for each other. Because we don't LEAVE THE HOUSE ANYMORE. And it's a tundra outside. -Rex throwing Gen a fake birthday party with a fake cake. She turned 12, you know. That's what he tells me. -Spending a whole day in pajamas (I'm not gonna lie, that was glorious). -Tupperware EVERYWHERE, everyday. -Riding bikes in the house because mom ran out of fun ideas. -I got my behind handed to me at Scrabble AND Rummy. Those words should never come out of MY mouth. I am so ashamed. So there you have it: lame. (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 2nd, 2010
mhjozwiakblog	10:06p	Best of 2009 http://thedumbestsmartgirlyouknow.blogspot.com/2010/01/best-of-2009.html My best. You know, posts. Promising The Love of Her Life Letter to Myself Is Being a Parent a Deal-Breaker? My Little Ladybug <3 We Were Never On the Same Page, Baby... Or if you're only here for the funny, I bring you: That's what she told me Flashback: Gram A tiny WHAT? Momilies (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 30th, 2009
mhjozwiakblog	9:19p	letter to the ex-other woman http://thedumbestsmartgirlyouknow.blogspot.com/2009/12/letter-to-ex-other-woman.html It must seem weird to hear from me. (The ex) told me that you moved out, and I felt like I should say a couple things in case our paths don't cross again. First, and most importantly, I want to thank you for being so kind to Rex and Gen. I was very uneasy about your involvement with them (let's be honest, I had good reason to harbor bad feelings), but they really like you and (your son). I can't tell you how many times they've said that he's their buddy! Rex and Gen had nothing but good things to say about you from the start. (The ex)'s parents, especially (ex's mom), repeatedly told me how good you were to the kids, and that really means a lot to me. I'm sure the situation wasn't always easy, and I wanted you to know that your caring for and about my babies was appreciated. Second, I know how difficult being in a relationship with (the ex) can be. It caused me to lose myself and took so long to realize that I deserved better. It may not be my place to say, but you are better off without him. I don't even know you, but I hope you understand that. I knew him. For a long time. He will not change. If I can offer some advice, biased though it may be, don't look back. Learn the lesson the first time. I wish you all the best, and thank you again. Psh, what a difference a year makes. Remember this letter? I'm giving myself a couple of days to decide whether emailing this one is the best idea... (Comment on this)
mhjozwiakblog	9:20p	another day, a whole new decade http://thedumbestsmartgirlyouknow.blogspot.com/2009/12/another-day-whole-new-decade.html I used to think New Year's was a silly holiday. Then I battled 2008, and suddenly "out with the old" meant so much. I was excited to send the year off, to symbolically end the madness that it had been, and the faux holiday had perfect timing! Until NOTHING was going on to celebrate. No one was doing ANYTHING. I was really, really bummed. And then Ryan called with an out of the blue invite to dinner. First date, I guess...looking back, it was absolutely the perfect end and beginning all at once. This year we're doing dinner with friends, and I'm really looking forward to it, but for different reasons. Tomorrow isn't about closing any doors. It was a really good year, and there are so many positive things on the horizon. And we have whole new decade to look forward to! (At the end of the next, my kids will be 12 and 13, EEK!) Have fun, be safe! Happy 2010! (PLEASE don't say "oh ten." Please.) (Comment on this)
Monday, December 28th, 2009
mhjozwiakblog	12:04a	self-inflicted his perdition http://thedumbestsmartgirlyouknow.blogspot.com/2009/12/self-inflicted-his-perdition.html Everyone says what goes around comes around. But sometimes it's hard to believe. Sometimes everything goes right for someone you can't fathom being deserving. Sometimes your significant other is abusive and unfaithful and neglects your children. When you finally leave, in the blink of an eye he has a new woman and child to fill the empty spaces. Sometimes he doesn't pay his child support, yet he buys a house. Sometimes he neglects his own kids to spend time with someone else's. He breaks every rule you've written. And everyone loooves him. Your life goes on, and it's much improved, but sometimes you still wonder how all of that is fair. Is karma a big fat lie? You have your own ups and downs, but the downs are never quite that low again. And you're happy! Out of nowhere, you start getting random texts, including, "This house is not a home without you" and, "You know you still love me." They leave you cold...because you've moved on to bigger and better and NICER things. Then he calls crying. Because his new love has found someone else and he's feeling as though he lost everything. He apologizes for the way he treated you. He shows up on your doorstep looking for a friend. And you don't have anything to give. And you realize that karma may just take a little more time than you expected. You reap, sir, what you sow. You won't find any sympathy from me. (And yes, I did "put it on the internet.") (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 27th, 2009
mhjozwiakblog	5:59p	chrisssssssssstmasssss http://thedumbestsmartgirlyouknow.blogspot.com/2009/12/so-after-this-post-i-feel-like-i-need.html So after this post, I feel like I need to set the record straight. Ryan did not get me anything gross or crazy for Christmas. In fact, he totally spoiled me, and I love every single gift (and I think he really liked his, too). He and his family also out-did themselves for the kids. It was pretty incredible! It was possibly the best Christmas ever. I didn't even boo-hoo about not having the kids with me on Christmas day, I was too busy having a good time! Again, incredible! The kids came home with pretty nasty colds, and my truck is still busted, so we're home bound...the kids enjoying all their new crap and me trying to find a place to put it all. Hope everyone had a lovely holiday! (Comment on this)
Friday, December 25th, 2009
mhjozwiakblog	1:40a	heck yes, my family's still crazy! http://thedumbestsmartgirlyouknow.blogspot.com/2009/12/heck-yes-my-familys-still-crazy.html I've failed to update you on Grandma Wanda's Christmas party. Sad! Here we go: As I've mentioned, my grandma reeeallly likes her bedazzling and lives in the ghetto. As does her mall, on both counts. She bought Gen a gold and purple hoodie with a huge "BABY PHAT" emblazened on it...or was it "Rocka Wear"? I've blocked it out. And a Sean John t shirt for my brother-in-law, which she pronounces "Seen John." I'm sure he hates it. But we wouldn't dare tell her that! My cousin Josh refuses to reveal the name of his girlfriend and calls her only "Snow Bunny." Hilarious! My uncle, who has spent more time in Westville than his own home, sent his long-lost daughter to the party. She fit in perfectly. Turns out my uncle also had another daughter with her mom's sister. Twin sister. (Is it too bizarre to understand? My new-found cousin's sister is nfc's cousin, too. That still sounds confusing. I give up!) No, I'm not joking. And also: I had Christmas Eve with the kids today. We made a birthday cake for Baby Jesus and I told the kids an abbreviated version of the nativity story. Gen thoughy this Jesus was coming over..."Well, where is he?" I told her, "Umm, he died. He's in Heaven. But that's a story for another day. Today, just the birthday, okay?" Okay... Tonight we went to Ryan's family's for dinner, where Gen announced to EVERYONE, "Baby Jesus is dead! He died! He's dead!" That was awesome. Ryan told me the next cake I make should be in honor of Satan and I can teach her that he lives. Sooo embarrassing! The truck continues to beat me to a bloody pulp. It's parked in my driveway indefinitely. I'm not even mad at it anymore. I've become that accustomed to its abuse. One of my best friends is engaged!!! So excited for her! The coffee shop is closed. Super sad day yesterday, and I was so glad I didn't have to be the one to lock the door that last time. :( (Comment on this)